A Struggling Addict Finds Renewal Through ‘God Will Provide’ – Part I
Two years into their marriage, Nadja learned in part what Andy had been secretly involved in.
“I noticed [Andy] was acting differently and I kept asking him what was going on…”
“…I was just fed up and I had to tell [Nadja…]: ‘I have a problem. Sometimes I do [drugs] and I can’t stop.’ I didn’t want to tell her I was fully addicted because I wanted to get clean and then tell her…” Andy didn’t want to worry his bride.
Nadja struggled to comprehend her husband’s addiction. “After he told me he had a problem, I didn’t understand why he couldn’t stop if he knew it hurt me. And it was hard to believe that a person [I] loved and trusted had been lying to [me]… I didn’t know where to turn. I felt helpless and I prayed every night for him; sometimes, just [cried] alone asking God to change him, help him – and us. It was the hardest time of my life.”
Nadja “realized that when an addiction consumes [someone], [they] can’t stop for anyone – not [their] parents, brother, or wife. Andy [needed] to do it for himself and only with God’s help.”
Andy planned to change and he was determined to do it on his own.
“…he literally stayed up all night long,” remembers Nadja. “I sat there on the bed with him and he went through the withdrawals… [it was] the worst thing in the world and-”
“-you feel like dying when you come off this stuff. It’s not only physical. It’s mental. It’s everything. You feel like you want to commit suicide…” remarks Andy.
Nadja was desperate for help and with little money to spare, she didn’t know where to begin.